I'm Fuckin Pissed(pardon the language)

Ugh I’m so pissed off. I was going to write about my wonderful 4^th of July but something else has come up. After having such a great and fun night with all of my friends I arrived home and found my AP test scores had arrived. I opened the envelope and was shocked. On my AP US History I received a 2 and on my AP English 3 I received a three. I’m not pleased with myself, I’m actually furious. One thing that really bothers me is that my teachers said I was capable of 4’s and 5’s. I don’t see how I was capable. I don’t know who to be angry at. I know I’m mad at my English teacher not because I didn’t get a 4 or 5 like she said but because she forced me to change my writing style and according to a previous AP student I know, my writing before this brainless idiot was better than it is now that she’s taken over the class. I can’t stand her as a teacher she’s always telling me I’m one of the best students. B#@$ S*#@!!! I’m not one of the best students and she sure as hell can’t teach AP English. Ugh I am so pissed I had confidence that I did better because people told me that I would do well so I studied and tried so hard to do well and I didn’t. Wow that really lowers your self esteem. Let’s see if I ever try anything hard again in my life. AP History is another story. We studied new information up until three days before the test and not once all year did we go back and review. Most questions on the history test are from the Revolutionary War to the Civil War and guess what we studied all that before Christmas. GRRR I’m so angry I can’t get over it. My History teacher did the same thing as the English one did and told me I would do great. Well look who didn’t do great. Yeah I know I can retake it next year but I really don’t think it’s worth it. I can’t do anything anymore. I’m a failure. I can’t even pass the ACT” I got a 21. Let’s see if I ever get to college. There go my hopes and dreams. By the way I do realize I’m exaggerating this a little more than it is but when you have confidence in yourself and its shatter and shaken it’s hard to realize it’ll be ok. I’m just upset with my scores and of course I can’t blame my teachers for it but the preparation they gave me, or lack there of, really didn’t help. I can’t emphasize how angry I am right now; at myself and everything. I’m just down. I can’t even ask a guy for his number how will I ever do anything. Life sucks and I don’t think I’ll be getting college credit for all the sincere hard work I did in high school that pleased my teachers but wasn’t what AP readers were looking for. UGH!!! I’m done I can’t do it anymore. I’ll just take this year as it comes and do my best; which seems to be hard because it’s not what other people want. Well of course they want me to do my best but not the way I want to. I’m just mad right now. It’ll pass soon, hopefully.

World Cup

So Im really not a huge soccer fan, I follow baseball a little closer and football only the Packers, but the World Cup in Germany is defiantly something worth following. I couldn't believe what I heard today when my friend told me that France defeated Brazil. Ive been supporting the German team from the start and hoped the Italians would get pretty far too. My sister however was rooting for a team from Latin America to win but after the shocking results of today her hopes have been dashed. Brazil was the power house coming in to the World Cup and many people thought they would take it. But that is all lost now after France beat the Brazilians 1-0. Itd be kind of cool if Portugal won but they play really dirty. No matter what, Im still rooting for Germany, and if they loose I want Italy to take it. The more upsetting factor is that on the fourth Germany and Italy play each other, I like both teams and as usual I have to work so I won't be able to watch it!!! Sometimes I wonder why I still have that job. True I still want Germany to win but thats a tough choice because over all I think Italy is the better team. With Brazil out of the picture the World Cup has opened up a lot more leaving virtually anyone with an opportunity to win. My sister has decided she doesn't care anymore becasue some European power house is going to win because Soccer is a European sport. I personally like the Europeans.