I wish I understood more

With only 8 days left until my final year of high school I’m beginning to regret the way I managed my summer. Most of the time I spent working hoping to make some money and the rest I spent hanging out with a few friends. That’s the reason I’m regretting my summer. I feel like I never got to spend enough time with them because I was at work and they didn’t accommodate my schedule or they just didn’t have any interest to do anything when I wasn’t working. I think we only saw everyone four or five times. If not it was only two or three of us that got together. As usual Peter Brandon and I were the three who spent the most time together. Alannah didn’t really start hanging out with us till the end of the summer and because Maura has a very busy schedule that no one can blame her for. I give her props for doing all she does, especially driving her sister everywhere cause that normally interferes with our plans and seriously who wants to chaperone their little sister everywhere. It’s her choice not mine and I respect that. However Maura has no sense of time which has become a joke with us because no matter what time we tell her she’s always a little late, no harm done.

I’ve known Maura for almost as long as I can remember and for the longest time we were best friends, we did everything together but high school it seems has changed everyone and nothing is like it used to be. Now a high school student she has found many sports to cram into her already packed schedule making it even harder to get together. She’s also made some new friends which isn’t a bad thing at all, everyone meets new people and to not know Maura is odd. However with high school her attitude has also changed. Fashion is a big part of her life. I can remember when she would just wear shorts and a t-shirt and not care about how she looked to the extreme that it appears today, but maybe it isn’t that extreme. It appears that way to me because I see things differently. Now I’m not saying that it’s a bad thing to have a sense of fashion but when you’re worried about the way you look 24/7 and want to take your friends shopping so that if one of them were to attend the same school as you, you wouldn’t be embarrassed by what they wear. If a person is going to be embarrassed on front of their friends because of what another friend wears then they aren’t good friends. I don’t mean to criticize anyone especially Maura but I’m wondering what can be so important about the cloths people wear.

I guess that brings me to Peter. His parents are taking him shopping in Cherry Creek to buy him cloths at all those stores like American Eagle and more. When I asked him why he couldn’t just go to the Mills mall and shop at the American Eagle there he told me it was because his mom didn’t want to shop there because they were outlet stores so everything there was what people didn’t want. In this case I think the clothing crisis has gone too far!!! When your parents don’t want to buy something of the same quality that’s cheaper because it’s what everyone else didn’t want it worries me, what does it matter? Yes your parents should be concerned about what you wear but if the concern is that of wearing something in an outlet store, come on!!!

If you haven’t noticed already I don’t care that much about clothing. I do care about how I look and I wouldn’t wear some of the cloths that are “in style” toady because they look hideous, but that is just my opinion. I never really fit into the whole typical outfit of a teenage girl. I buy cloths that are descent and I feel comfortable in. yeah so what maybe I’m not popular because of the cloths I wear but at least I don’t wake up in the morning worrying about how people think I look. I just don’t understand why cloths are so important, and why it is something that causes people to judge each other. To worry about wear you buy your cloths because it will affect how people treat you is ridiculous. My friend Pat would only get a Venti drink at Starbucks because he didn’t want to look poor. I never understood him and now I see the same thing happening with clothing. Are the cloths you wear a measure of wealth. If you don’t have top of the line Abercrombie & Fitch does that mean you’re poor because you bought it at an outlet store a season later?

None of this is personal against anyone and I hope I don’t offend anyone. I just got really irritated today because people are so concerned about their cloths. Or maybe I’m jealous because I’m not like everyone else. I wear jeans and I t-shirt because I look good in it, maybe I’m jealous of not being able to wear the shirt from American Eagle or GAP but you know what? Stores like that don’t sell stuff that I can where. They cater to the people who can fit into small shirts and don’t care if a little skin is showing. I think I’ll stop now one because I got side tracked from my original thought and two because if I go any further I will offend someone.

To get back to where I was going I was regretting not spending enough time with my friends and I now realize with senior year approaching I’ll have even less time. My summer homework has been in the back of my mind and now with 8 days left I realize that I have to get started on it. Meaning these last few days of summer break will be Hell. I will be spending most of my time doing work and not spending the last few days with my friends. I really regret not spending time with them, and seriously what kind of school assigns summer homework? Seriously? On a serious tone I want to apologize to all my friends who I didn’t get to spend very much time with the summer. It really eats me up now to see everything I wasted.